Have you ever been invited out and then decided not to show up?
Did you think about what the outcome would be as a result of your not being there?
Probably not, right? As the saying goes, “The party must go on…”
And if it’s still going on without you then what difference does it make if you aren’t there?
That’s how I thought about myself for most of my life.
I didn’t think it mattered one way or the other if I didn’t show up. I didn’t think anyone really cared if I wasn’t there. Honestly, I didn’t feel like I would be missed. It was just me.
It’s like being asked to bring a dish and everyone shows up with one except for you. I thought I had very little to add or bring to the “party.”
Much of that is due to the fact that I denied a big part of who I was for a long time.
When you can’t talk about what you love and what you do, a big part of you is missing. You may as well be nonexistent because you aren’t there–YOU are not present.
I think we underestimate how important our gifts truly are. When God says, “Here, I want you to have this. I want you to do something with this,” and we never do– we put it to the side and don’t give it to other people, we miss out on our lives, essentially because that is our purpose.
I deprived myself of being a writer for a long time. But it wasn’t the absence of writing necessarily that made me feel empty. It was what I was doing (or the lack thereof) when I wasn’t writing.
When I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t speaking truth. When I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t encouraging or inspiring. When I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t shedding light. When I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t helping others become liberated. That’s who I am.
And when you realize who you are, you show up different. Or if you’re anything like me, you finally decide to show up all together.
Showing up requires that you recognize who you are. Showing up requires you to understand that you have purpose. If you don’t understand or recognize that you have purpose then you’ll be inclined to decline…every time.
So here’s what I want to say to you:
Accept the invitation. Recognize that you have purpose…and show up for your life.