If you’re anything like me, you dread the sight of seeing nametags. They only mean one thing: INTRODUCTIONS.
The thought of giving introductions or telling other people about myself gives me a little bit of anxiety.
I always struggle with what I’m going to say or what I should say and how it will measure in comparison to who others say that they are.
I attended an event last week–a social “mixer” to be more exact. I knew that it would require me to speak a little bit about my professional experience or share what sparked my interest in the event or at least that’s what I thought would occur.
My anxiety was eased somewhat when I found that half of the people that were expected to attend did not show up.
But I wasn’t off the hook. I still would have to introduce myself to the few people that were there. That was a lot less scary though.
Our nametags read:
There were different questions displayed on the bottom of each nametag. The other person was supposed to answer the question presented on yours.
I was really nervous about what I was going to say, but even more so, how the other person would receive what I said.
After introducing myself and answering the question I hoped that response was sufficient enough and that I wouldn’t have to answer any more questions. At this time we were guided to grab something to eat and drink, mingle and chit chat amongst each other. As I waited for the event to officially get started I heard a voice coming from within say, “talk… like you have purpose.“
For a moment I was puzzled, but I sat up straight to listen.
The statement grabbed hold of me. I listened to gain more insight into what was being said. The voice proceeded, “you’re talking like you don’t have a purpose.”
That was deep, I remember thinking. And it was.
I was speaking as if I was insignificant.
I’m not sure how or when I came to adopt that mentality, but God showed up to tell me that wasn’t true.
Sometimes we look at our present and we see what it’s not. It startles us. It shakes us into fear. We become embarrassed and ashamed and at times we even feel belittled by our present situations.
But in that moment God was saying, “You’re not small to me. You’re not insignificant to me. I gave you purpose.”
That’s the course that He had to put me back on.
Throughout the years I’ve relied on several things to make me feel important or to contribute to my self-esteem.
When those things were gone I felt like I didn’t know who I was. And to some degree, I guess I really didn’t know who I was (at least not without those things).
So, God moved all of those things out of the way because they were hindering me from embracing His design.
What I was standing on was very faulty and shaky. It wasn’t sturdy at all.
I know that He wants to give me something solid–something firm to stand on.