This is the first time that I’m writing on my blog since the year has started (way to go Stephanie).
If I’m being honest, I haven’t been completely lax but I haven’t been completely disciplined either. I started out the new year saying that I was determined to make this year one of my best years. And while, I think I’m on the right path, I also believe that I can go just a little bit harder.
I had an inclination earlier this morning to waltz over to the couch and continue where I left off watching Greenleaf. I always randomly get into watching these shows after my husband decides to binge watch a series. I sit down with him for a few minutes and I’m usually totally uninterested in whatever the show is that he’s watching at the time. About the third show in I find myself asking questions. Suddenly, I want to know who the characters are and why they are doing what they are doing. The next thing you know, I’m hooked. But I digress.
I got about as far as turning on the television and loading up Netflix. Why not, I thought. I’ve prayed. I’ve done my morning devotion. I’ve read a chapter in this book (I’m reading Believe Bigger by Marshawn Evans). I should go sit down and watch a little TV. I just feel like relaxing today.
It was in that moment that I began to feel a slight conviction. Yes, I had done all of those things, but was that enough? Is this enough? Am I really spending enough time working on accomplishing my goals each day? I don’t think so.
The truth is that I can do a LOT more than what I am doing. I have the time so why am I not applying myself as much as I can? Why am I not pushing myself as hard as I can? Why do I feel that only a couple of hours will suffice working on my goals when I have an entire day off of work?
I don’t think that’s how the successful do it. I don’t think that is how this works. The amount of time that I am spending. The amount of effort that I am putting forth. Is this enough? Hardly.
I realize that I have to set realistic, specific goals, and actually tend to them if I want to accomplish anything.
As much as I don’t want to admit it. As much as I hate to say it. I realize that in certain areas, I have an issue with discipline. And I’m never going to get anywhere if I don’t develop that habit.
Sometimes you have to admit to yourself, the cold, hard truth.